It's Possible

Yesterday, I attended a lecture of a Santa Barbara-based professor of Sociology who presented his views and some photos about socila inequalities in various places around the world. Anyway, the lecture is not my primera rason for writing this entry. It’s about my “kinda embarassing but kinda hilarious ding” experience during the lecture. I came at the venue at around 10:31. I didn’t expect that the lecture would be full-packed and well-attended, as in SRO. But well, I wouldn’t want to just stand for the rest of the hour listening to his lecture. So when this kind professor approached us, those who were standing at the back, to sit in front although on the floor, I didn’t keme. Go. Ang sikip but I wanted to listen so I sat there even if I could hardly see the presentation. I just listened to the audio. Eh talagang gusto ko comfortable ako. I spotted a good point exactly in front of the front floor. I would have to pass along the podium which the speaker was using. To show some respect, I bent down walking towards that spot. But to my embarrassment, the mic stand hit my head. The sound of the hit sounded of course. That was when the speaker was explaining something with the visual presentation. The audience laughed at me. To make the moment not so embarrassing or to somehow cover the supposedly embarrassing experience, I just laughed with them and showed that I was ok. Actually, it didn’t hurt much. I said sorry to the speaker who was too charming and kind not to mind much of what happened. Sa susunod, magsurvey kasi muna ng dinadaanan hahaha.

I just want to cry. I know why. But I just can’t seem to express everything I have here inside my heart. It’s like my tears want to flow but my eyes don’t let them. My heart wants to burst out. (buntong-hininga)

Lord, You know me.

You know my pains and my sadness.

You know each and every thought that I have.

You know my plans.

You know my heart.

You know me.

You know how hard I’m going through.

You know this pain I’m feeling right now.

I want to cry so loud.

YOU LOVE ME.

Yun lang pinanghahawakan ko kaya kaya kong harapin lahat ng ito. Itong mga luha na malayang dumadaloy, salamat po sa mga luhang ito. Nailalabas ko ang mga nagtatagong lungkot.

Alam ko MAHAL MO AKO. enough na yun sa akin, Lord.

I love YOU too.

 Have you ever walked through an unfamiliar road so dark you got your feet rushing faster than the usual?

Have you ever had that strange feeling? So unusual of me.

Ang dilim. I was praying “Lord, sana po walang manghold-up sa akin… sana wala pong mangyaring masama sa akin…” 11pm sa isang madilim at mahabang kalsada. Mahabang storya…. thank God I got home safe

God is always sure that we meet the right people at the right time.

The greatest opportunity we have is to spend eternity with Christ.

It’s so nice to be happy but it is of great advantage that we feel pain and sorrow at times.

Agony is perhaps the deepest emotion opposite unfathomable joy and peace.

A sandal without a partner is useless.

Faith without works is dead.

So if I’m just gonna wait for a breakthrough to occur in my life but not doing anything, then I should not expect for something great to happen. Tutubuan na lang ng kabute ang tuod.

God rewards those who persevere.

“Can you fathom the mysteries of God?

Can you probe the limits of the Almighty?

They are higher than the heavens, what can you do?

They are deeper than the depths of the grave, what can you know?

Their measure is longer than the earth and

wider than the sea.”

-Job 11:7-9

You are beautiful beyond description beyond description

Too marvelous for words

Too wonderful for comprehension

Like nothing ever seen or heard

Who can grasp Your infinite wisdom

Who can fathom the depth of Your love

You are beautiful beyond description

Majesty enthroned above

And I stand, I stand in awe of You

I stand, I stand in awe of You

Holy God to whom all praise is due

I stand in awe of You